I need to meet more people around here, people that are genuine and have similar traits/interests/morals as me.

I’m not sick of my friends or anything, they’re just pairing up and being the third wheel all the time is ridiculously irritating.

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True to me.

I cannot stand to hear your name,
I cannot bear witness to your gains.

You were the best thing ever,
only to leave me, now and forever.

We were the best of friends,
it was our way, how we broke the trends.

We shared and shed our tears.
Whilst fighting away our deepest fears.

Even from a distance our friendship took,
it was just friendship, but we were hooked.

Many hours and days talking together we spent,
Only to find your no further need to vent.

Silence from you was all I heard,
There was no communication, not a single word.

Betrayal was all that I could see.
For no consideration was given to me.

You left me behind with no explanation,
With my thoughts, and no destination.

We have never spoke, even to this day,
its been so long now, only 4 months away.

My feelings now mixed with regret,
I’m nothing, just hollowed and upset.

Someone came before your leaving,
they are truthful, never deceiving.

Now I feel nothing more than great debt,
for the one who brought light to my silhouette.

Forever grateful I shall be.
To the one who was true to me.

- Roaring Fox Stories

(via roaringfox)

Oh how i’ll miss you

Today could have quite easily ranked amongst the worst days in my life. I woke up to beeping across the road, as i glanced to my watch on my bedside table my frustration already rose to an unbearable level.

7:06 am it read.

This is not the way I like starting a day, I quite often need my sleep, recently i haven’t been sleeping well.

The nights have sometimes been long and restless. Thoughts of you often plaguing at my memories.

It’s been four months since your death, yet I still cry as if it were yesterday.

Hell, i’m even crying now as I write this down, tears matching words.

I feel so guilty, so emotionally unstable, i feel numb because of what happened to you, and the fact that i could have stopped it. The fact that i could have been with you on this day, holding you tight, fighting away each of our fears as the night drew upon us.

Yet you’re not, i miss the smell of your lavender perfume, the way your hair reflected light.

I miss you.

I have done nothing today but cry, because i found the note that was intended to be read four long months ago. Intending to bring me peace, and a form of content knowing that you wanted this.

Your suicide note pulled me together.

But by god i’ll miss you.

-Roaring Fox

True to me.

I cannot stand to hear your name,
I cannot bear witness to your gains.

You were the best thing ever,
only to leave me, now and forever.

We were the best of friends,
it was our way, how we broke the trends.

We shared and shed our tears.
Whilst fighting away our deepest fears.

Even from our distance our friendship took,
it was just friendship, but we were hooked.

Many hours and days talking together we spent,
Only to find your no further need to vent.

Silence from you was all I heard,
There was no communication, not even a word.

Betrayal was all that I could see.
For no consideration was given to me.

You left me behind with no explanation,
With my thoughts, and no destination.

We have never spoke, even to this day,
its been so long now, only 4 months away.

My feelings now mixed with regret,
I’m nothing, just hollowed and upset.

Someone came before your leaving,
they are truthful, never deceiving.

Now I feel nothing more than great debt,
for the one who brought light to my silhouette.

Forever grateful I shall be.
To the one who was true to me.

- Roaring Fox.

(Source: roaringfox)

My Story: The Night time

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…I whispered something in her ear, she stirred, her eyes still closed, she moved around, reaching for my hand, clasping it she held on tight. Her fingers interlocking with mine, as she whispered.  Just fall asleep with me…

I didn’t leave the house at all that month. I was confined to the house, unable to walk for sustained periods without difficulty, as well as avoiding all motorised travel unless absolute necessary, apparently trigger memories were common, triggered by the smallest signals; travelling by car could send me into a state of shock. 

I suppose it helped in a way, before the accident I had been placed under a lot of stress at work. Mel had moved in, temporarily or permanently we hadn’t decided, then again, we hadn’t really spoken about it.  

I listened to her breathing, seeing her chest rise and fall in time with a light breeze as it passed through the room, the curtains following suit, drifting slowly to the ebb and flow of air. The light of the moon was shining through, creating a soft light to the room casting shadows in which created a peaceful atmosphere. I hadn’t been sleeping well during the night; to be expected apparently, but even so, I didn’t mind. 

I pulled her hair back behind her ears, as she breathed a heavy sigh, rolling over closer to me, her arms reaching for mine in a half daze. She was still asleep but pulling me closer, I smiled as I wrapped my arms around her, her head sinking into the center of my chest. Hair splaying around her, shimmering in the light as the moonlight bounced around the moon. 

Kissing her on the forehead, I settle down, shutting my eyes in an attempt to fall asleep, the clock on the dresser by the door flickering it’s neon green numbers: 3:04 am.

My body sinks into the mattress, my mind wandering, drifting away from my brain. Feeling skin brushing against my face, lips touching mine softly.

I open my eyes, blinking for a little bit, adjusting to the darkness, seeing hers glinting into mine.  She opened her mouth to whisper three simple words.

I love you.

-Roaring Fox

(Source: roaringfox)

My Story: Blur

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…

Realisation struck her eyes, widening immediately. As she shook Charlotte’s arm to rouse her.

Oh shit Charlie, its all bloody. Lie down, let me get a nurse!

I did feel woozy all of a sudden, and wondered for a second why i everything had turned sideways.

Who flicked off the lights?…

The next few weeks were a blur, all I remember was Mel constantly by my side, often just sitting in the couch at the foot of my bed, reading, writing or just watching me. She hardly ever moved, as far as I know, i blacked out often, sometimes more than 5 or 6 times a day, doctors and nurses coming and going, even Chris was out of the hospital before me, him and Charlotte often coming to visit me.

I wasn’t the best of company, my doctor told me I had an accelerated healing process, a genetic gift from my parents. One of which left me tired and prone to blackouts, however, the injuries i sustained were meant to have killed me, well… killed me permanently. 

Three weeks had passed since the accident, all that was plaguing my mind was that out of body experience. I hadn’t mentioned it to anyone but Mel, I was afraid of what the doctors would think.

I had to be knocked out to get to my apartment, as to avoid trigger memories whilst travelling in the car. The doctor suggested I wait three weeks until I do so again. 

Lying on the bed, my arms wrapped around Mel as she slept softly. Her breathing slow, unburdened, she shuffled her body closer to mine, filling up the gaps. I moved my hand to pull her hair back, rubbing it softly against her neck, watching her eyes flutter as she entered REM sleep, dreaming of the wondrous alternate reality her mind created.

I whispered something in her ear, she stirred, her eyes still closed, she moved around, reaching for my hand, clasping it she held on tight. Her fingers interlocking with mine, as she whispered.

Just fall asleep with me.

-Roaring Fox

(Source: roaringfox)