True to me.
I cannot stand to hear your name,
I cannot bear witness to your gains.
You were the best thing ever,
only to leave me, now and forever.
We were the best of friends,
it was our way, how we broke the trends.
We shared and shed our tears.
Whilst fighting away our deepest fears.
Even from a distance our friendship took,
it was just friendship, but we were hooked.
Many hours and days talking together we spent,
Only to find your no further need to vent.
Silence from you was all I heard,
There was no communication, not a single word.
Betrayal was all that I could see.
For no consideration was given to me.
You left me behind with no explanation,
With my thoughts, and no destination.
We have never spoke, even to this day,
its been so long now, only 4 months away.
My feelings now mixed with regret,
I’m nothing, just hollowed and upset.
Someone came before your leaving,
they are truthful, never deceiving.
Now I feel nothing more than great debt,
for the one who brought light to my silhouette.
Forever grateful I shall be.
To the one who was true to me.
(via roaringfox)
My New Reality
I’m numb. I sit here at my desk, writing in an attempt to clear my head, in preparation for the long journey ahead, sleep will not come easy….
They say life is predetermined… well it’s contested, some like to think otherwise..
I was once the same.
After all my troubles, lost loves, and heartbreaks, I no longer want to be responsible for the hardships that have crossed my path.
I want to be free of the guilt.
I approach my bed, my sanctuary, I want to sleep even earlier tonight, but sleep will not come easy…
The shadows that fill up the corners await for the sun to set, ready to plague my night, pushing sleep out of reach for fear of the unknown.
My eyes droop, yet my anxiety peaks I struggle for peace, for rest. Tossing and turning, restlessly, I am unable to fight the shadows which now linger above me, filling my room. Light is now the minority, slowly fading away, there is no hope for me now, there is no turning back.
I feebly try to think positively, try to pull my sheets closer around me; a mock shield for the deadly enemy.
My thoughts are penetrated, streams of blackness pour in, invading every ounce of conscious thought, my mind is no longer free, and the emotions that fall with it, suppressed, held against my will.
I have become nothing, but a raging inconsolable stranger to those whom I love, and love me, what’s left of them.
My eyes can no longer fight it, giving up by closing my eyelids, to let in what final madness can be established within the last place of hope.
My dreams.
No longer can I escape the reality that is my own, no longer can I look forward to dreaming; leaving behind my troubles and fears, no longer can I visit my hopes and aspirations, of which will one day could have been.
They will never be fulfilled, destiny has already chosen my fate, for now I relax, the now addictive darkness overriding my fears, pushing me further into my inescapable nightmares.
My new reality.
-Roaring Fox
(Source: roaringfox)
True to me.
I cannot stand to hear your name,
I cannot bear witness to your gains.
You were the best thing ever,
only to leave me, now and forever.
We were the best of friends,
it was our way, how we broke the trends.
We shared and shed our tears.
Whilst fighting away our deepest fears.
Even from our distance our friendship took,
it was just friendship, but we were hooked.
Many hours and days talking together we spent,
Only to find your no further need to vent.
Silence from you was all I heard,
There was no communication, not even a word.
Betrayal was all that I could see.
For no consideration was given to me.
You left me behind with no explanation,
With my thoughts, and no destination.
We have never spoke, even to this day,
its been so long now, only 4 months away.
My feelings now mixed with regret,
I’m nothing, just hollowed and upset.
Someone came before your leaving,
they are truthful, never deceiving.
Now I feel nothing more than great debt,
for the one who brought light to my silhouette.
Forever grateful I shall be.
To the one who was true to me.
- Roaring Fox.
(Source: roaringfox)
